Just Not That Kind of Girl

So I realized these past few weeks, I'm just not that kind of girl. What kind of you girl you may ask? I'll explain.

I'm not the kind of girl who knew exactly what she wanted for her wedding. I didn't have dresses in mind or locations or cakes. I don't have one of those binders with magazine cut outs of bride's maid dresses.

I just knew I wanted to have fun with my family and friends in a pretty white dress.

So needless to say, this "1-week-left-crunch-time" before my wedding has been a nightmare for me. Everyone calls me to ask me my opinion on plans for the wedding: "Is it ok if this person brings a guest? Do we have tables set? Do we need shuttle drivers? What time should bridal party arrive? Where do guests stay? What are the exact directions to the ceremony location?" And all I want to do is scream back,"I don't care! Just let it happen!" Which is obviously not the appropriate response.

So I have to quietly answer and plan and schedule, when all I want to do is bake some cookies and snuggle on the couch watching Food Network. But alas, weddings don't happen that way.

I cannot wait for my wedding to be done. Don't get me wrong, I'm so excited to get married that it's hard to put into words, but I just wish the stress didn't have to come with the happy occasion. It puts a damper on the who joy when all I can think about is if we have enough chairs and who is going to start the slide show at the right time. I don't understand the brides that become depressed when the ceremony is done because they miss all the planning. I'll miss the moment of the wedding, but definitely NOT the planning.

On a brighter note, I'm just happy I'm with someone who doesn't mind that I'm just not that kind of girl. And I just keep reminding myself that around 7 days exactly from right now, I'll be married and on my way to start my honeymoon. I'll just have to keep visiting my happy place until all this fiasco...I mean wedding is over.

--Twixter Two